Despite various struggles that I face daily, I've never felt like a disabled person. Certainly not in everyday life anyway.Sure there are events, specific jobs (like the online food shop which I find so hard and the only reason i do that is because I can't cope with being in the actual shop to do [...]
Why is everything always a problem?
"Why is everything always a problem?"I couldn't tell you how many times I've heard that phrase over the years, especially when I was younger.I think about logistics a lot. The hows and the wheres are important to me, I need to know them. My brain thinks at a rapid rate to see if something will [...]
In a world that values team work…
If you ask someone what their favourite online game is right now, the majority of people will be able to answer you right away. Mine is online scrabble. It saved me during lockdown. It kept my brain busy, it was social without having to be actually social and kept connections (however vague) with people who [...]
Moving to our new normal.
Moving from survival to our new normal.I posted on social media about how my brain has been in shut down. It's protecting itself from threat. For a finite amount of time this is of course absolutely fine for an adhd brain, but after a while it leaves you feeling low that you're achieving nothing. You're [...]
Accepting limitations is not a weakness…
Accepting your limitations isn't a weakness, it's quite the opposite.As lockdown has continued I feel as though layers and layers of masking, expectation, self protection and my own false impressions of myself have slowly been stripped away. It's a strange feeling, the world has never provided me with an opportunity like this before. An opportunity [...]
The indirect risk of Coronavirus…
Just because you agree with a decision, doesn't mean you can't be scared about it too.By 7pm on Monday, McDonalds will close all its restaurants and drive thrus. Many people will have no clue why this terrifies me, but some of you will totally understand.Social distancing is not new to our family. We've been doing [...]
The importance of a morning routine.
One of my new years resolutions was to learn more about what makes me tick. So far the learning curve is pretty steep...During a term time week my morning routine is shit hot. I know what I need to do and in what order and once 9.30am comes I feel my whole body relax. If [...]
How my garden saved me.
I found myself with a spare half an hour the other day. In between appointments and pick ups, I dordled in this small vacuum of time. What was I supposed to do with half an hour? Snooze in the car? Grab a quick coffee? Both sounded appealing. But before I knew it my feet had [...]
To fight? Or not to fight? That is the question…
I've taken a break from blogging recently. About a month ago I reached a cross roads where I had to decide how to take my life forward. I was stressed. Unbelievably stressed. I had been fighting the NHS for a referral to a large children's hospital in London. I had been arguing for more social [...]
A step in the right direction…
Guys, it's been a while... apologies for the lack of consistency with my blogging, but you know how life gets in the way. Nevertheless, we have news! Mega win for the Autism Diaries household today! I dread opening letters that read, "To the parent/guardian of..." I feel instantly anxious when I see one. But today [...]