"What's wrong little man?" I asked, as I skillfully dodged a punch that had purpose to it. I looked up and saw pain in his eyes, remorse even. He didn't want to do that to me, but something I did or said at that moment caused him pain. We've had a difficult few days this [...]
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Do I deserve the help I get?
Do I deserve the help I get? This is a question I've been pondering a lot lately. Since putting my back out I've had a lot of time to think (not always a good thing for me) and each time I have found myself coming back to this. Do I deserve the help and support [...]
A bedroom transformation.
It's been a while since I've blogged. Truth be told I've lost my way a bit. March was hideous for the number of appointments and meetings we had for kiddo. I'm going to write about that in another blog but I'd be lying if I said it hasn't thrown me off course with a number [...]
How to start listening with your eyes…
Recently I have been wondering, just how much does the need for reciprocal affection affect our parenting style? As a neurotypical person I'd say most of us strive to receive affection, to find a partner who will love us and show that love. How many of you get annoyed if your partner doesn't buy you [...]
Do parents have the right to expect certain behaviours from their children?
Quite often as I browse Twitter I come across various posts discussing the abusive nature of neurotypical parents towards their autistic children. I was seriously shocked at first, and a little hurt if I'm honest. How could neurotypical (NT) parents be given this label? I mean, child abuse? Really? Surely NT parents couldn't be that [...]
The very real anxiety of transitioning.
When I was in primary school, my dad drove me to swimming lessons every Saturday morning. I loved my lessons, but the journey to the pool I absolutely did not love. In fact, it was the most stressful part of my week. Why? Because even at the age of 8 I suffered from anxiety. Anxiety [...]
London calling…The Finale.
Ah, London. Over the past few months you and i have become best friends again. Although I grew up in your northern suburbs, but on this most recent trip I realised just how much of a country bumpkin I have become... At first I fell straight back into my north London factory settings. This was [...]
When everything falls into place…
Writing this blog is all about sharing the good, the bad and the ugly. But I want to make sure that I don't focus too much on the bad and the ugly. Someone once said to me that parenting a child with disabilities brings the lowest lows, but also the highest highs! Some highs brought [...]
While the rest of the world sleeps.
While the rest of the world sleeps, I hear you stirring in your bed. The stimming starts, The to and fro of your shaking head. I wait with baited breath, Will you wake happy or sad? But it does not matter, For little sleep we have had. I check the bedside clock, What hour is [...]
The stress of a normal existence…
It's 5am. I'm writing this now as I can't sleep. I'm stressed. Again. Why? This time it's because of something that most people would consider quite a normal experience. In fact most would treat it as a fun and healthy family activity. But to me it is utterly terrifying. What is it? Swimming lessons. The [...]