I feel so tired,
My eyes are begging for sleep.
I feel so tired,
The sting of failure in my feet.
I feel so tired,
Nothing but words flying round my head.
I feel so tired,
Yet here I lay awake in a comfy bed.
I have nothing left,
My heart is running on empty.
I have nothing left,
My legs, my arms, they feel so heavy.
I have nothing left,
My body says “just please give in”.
I have nothing left,
I am lost in a world of sin.
I’m so confused,
Why is this happening to me?
I’m so confused,
Happy and settled is all I want to be.
I’m so confused,
Do I deserve this strife?
I’m so confused,
I just don’t get this life.
I feel so angry,
My family don’t deserve this hell.
I feel so angry,
For there is no one you can tell.
I feel so angry,
I just want what is best for my child.
I feel so angry,
I cant tame this life, it’s far too wild.
I feel so lost,
Injustice fills my head and heart.
I feel so lost,
This world won’t give my family a start.
I feel so lost,
I don’t know what more I can do?
I feel so lost,
This time I think I have truly failed you.
I feel so proud,
Here in front of me you sit,
I feel so proud,
The world hasn’t changed you, not one bit.
I feel so proud,
You stand out for all to see,
I feel so proud,
You are an inspiration to me.
I feel awake!
My heart begins to pound.
I feel awake!
Simply hearing your beautiful sound.
I feel awake!
You remind me why I fight.
I feel awake!
Bring it on, every day and night.
I feel focused,
I will do this for you my child.
I feel focused,
I will not let this life run wild.
I feel focused,
Let’s re group and start again.
I feel focused,
Defeat will not shake our zen.
I feel love,
Your happiness matters to me most.
I feel love,
To sadness and anger I will not play host.
I feel love,
Into a deep slumber I fall.
I feel love,
Because for you my child I will do it all.
Danielle Punter